Every Thursday…

13 Dec

I watched an old Loretta Young and John Forsythe movie called Every Thursday the other day, about a couple who bought a small town weekly newspaper only to find the old printer broke down, on schedule, every Thursday just as the paper was coming out. Strangely enough, I learned a few tips about how to deal with Stoplooklisten’s current state of breaking down in some way every single day! It’s difficult enough starting a new business. It’s insane to start one with next to no money and tools (apps!) and machinery that break down on you without notice. But I will persist.

Add to all that, I have a physical problem that makes it impossible to sit at a desk in the same position for long hours.  So I’ve rigged a way to move my PC from an fat armchair to the bed and back when I need it. I love the armchair the best, because this is my view:DSC03234 (2)

The closer we get to Winter Solstice, the more golden The Meadow will be at sunrise. It will take the edge off of broken down days.

What will come out today? We’ll have to see. As I said… things aren’t working quite yet. But there will be SOMETHING wonderful. You can’t work in a place like this and not have something brilliant come out of it…

Make sure you visit my shop at Blurb.com today. The photoart books are listed at sale price, and it’s getting close to Christmas… the link is on the banner at the top of this page.

Have a golden day!


10 Dec

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Stoplooklisten Press is ready to go.

Have you wondered what the newest way to experience creative work is?

My published e-work will now be available online through Stoplooklisten on facebook, or on this page. Most of it will be available directly through Kindle and Amazon.com. There’s a new kind of e-book called a complex ebook that can combine audio, video and text in a single ebook. Do you miss the music albums we used to have, when we sat down with more than a recording, but text and photographs? Now you can have that experience with an ebook. My music albums start being released this way, by Christmas. Some will be music video albums! Do you love to be told a story, not just read one? Video story telling books are coming your way! I am also releasing a series of Easebooks, books that take a moment to meditate on a thought through poetry, video, or audio, taking no more than a few minutes of your time. It’s a coffee break for the soul. Or tea, if you’re like me! Easebooks also make great ways to let someone else know you’re thinking of them. The first title, A Thanksgiving for the All in All, is out now: it’s good not just for Thanksgiving Day, but any time you want to thank someone for what they have done.

Easebooks are only 2.99, the price of a greeting card. The price of the music and story albums will be between 4.99 and 6.99 depending on volume of material. None of my e-books will cost over 9.99, and that’s for a full book! So much variety for so little cost. What’s going to be available? Stay curious, and come see for yourself what is being added.

Stoplooklisten’s own webpage is coming soon. For now, look for updates here on this page or on face book.

In the meantime: Visit my published work already on Blurb.com and Amazon.com. The links are at the top of this page.

The Crack Between The Worlds

29 Oct


Things are changing here now. In fact, things will always be changing.

But in this season of Samhain, for me, there are some critical changes. Endings and new beginnings, all happening at the time of “the crack between the worlds.”

My work is now focused through two outlets: Amazon, and Blurb. I am releasing new titles through both, sending out a good deal of writings, photography. music and memories. New at Blurb are the chapbooks Regret No Grief and Cereus. These slender volumes are art pieces that can be framed, or scattered, most definitely read, because there is poetry and more images inside of them. They are high quality publications, made on demand. The next chapbook coming out is Guardians, in early November. Guardians is a book about my work in sculpting guardian figures. At this time, my painting and fiber work are also turning to creating new images of guardians, the unknown angels that guide and support us.

The most exciting news are the changes through Amazon. Both music and new books will be released through the website. Most of my new books will be e-books. Some will have paperback versions. The first to be released will be Transforming Suicide: Changing What We Choose to End.  The paperback version of this book will be an interactive journal, giving space for readers to write their own ideas about suicide and its effects and solutions. We have seen and lost too much by suicide this past year. It’s time to take a clearer look at what we can do to change our reactions to suicidal impulses, to things that do not stop our lives, or do harm in any way. We do have choices we may have never realized. I have changed my suicides into better things. I’m alive, and glad of it.

There will also be a series of e-diaries that follow my new journey: more on that by Christmas. In the meantime: there’s much to do about the music and this first new book. Samhain is, for me, the end of one year, and the beginning of a space between this year and another. For two months I celebrate life before a new year sends us all in new directions. May we all have good ones.

The Dangerous Silly

9 Oct

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This is for you. I told you it would be here. You had the silly idea you could ridicule people you have made no effort to know.

If you read today’s other post you’ll see I’ve been busy. Yes. When the world is falling apart around me, I get very busy finding what’s right with it, while many others seem determined to make it very, very wrong. In these times of political hatred and ugliness, when people who have no clue about what has really happened to them – let alone anyone else – want to spew off, we need something better to be taken care of.

I am tired of those who sound off about things and people they don’t even want to understand. There are better things to do as we help in the struggle to bring the world back to a centered place. No matter how angry the dangerous silliness of these times can make us, there is always a center.

But that doesn’t mean we will not get angry about being abused in any way. Anger is the right of a human to stand up for one’s self. It just helps to be honest about what we’re really angry about, instead of letting other people tell us what we’re supposed to think and do. I have no interest in repeating the lies and manipulations of people who want to control me, as many people have discovered over the years. While finding my center, I have not lost my roar. Or my independence. I don’t know what happened to yours.

If you don’t want to hear me or anyone else roar, don’t tell me the lies you’ve clung to. I don’t care how much you believe them. That’s your problem. I’m here to tell you they are not acceptable if you don’t have the courage to check out the truth behind what you’ve been told. And have the respect for this nation to not insist on turning it into a silly thing.

A Polish woman I met 40 years ago told me of her trials as someone who lived under the Stalinist regime. When she told our class about her father’s arrest and death for doing nothing at all, we were horrified. We said it was terrible. She turned to me and said, “It’s not terrible, it’s silly. There’s nothing more dangerous than silly.” I was reminded of that last year, when I head the memories of a woman who lived in Nazi Germany. Her family had voted for Hitler because he promised such huge things. They believed him. By the end of the war, their farm had been destroyed, their town, the homes of their relatives – and their relatives. Their jobs. Their security. Their lives as they knew them. All she has left from before the war was a family crest that they took great pride in. Most of that family is now gone. I told her about the Polish woman. She nodded. “Oh, yes. That sounds true.” That’s all she could say. In the end, it’s all anyone has left.

I’m not interested in taking part in, or hearing any more, of our dangerous silly things. If you ask the people around you, you’ll find most of us do not share your gullibility. Be responsible people and take a good look at what you’ve been doing. For what? Really? What have you got left?



9 Oct

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Visit Blurb.com to preview my newest photoart chapbooks, Regret No Grief  and Cereus  They are the first and second offerings in a series called Stop.Look.Listen, chapbooks that share poetry, prose, and images in volumes so slender, their art ready covers can be framed! The words and photos speak of life, within and around us. While you’re at it, check out my profile for the work that has come before. I think you will enjoy what you find. I’m fortunate to live in a beautiful place, that inspires good things…

Upcoming news? Transforming Suicide and Redefining Joy will be released through Kindle Publications within the next month, if all goes well! They are among the first releases of another series, The Mindwood Journals, which will explore life, thought, belief, and creativity, all the things that help make us human, full of genius as well as faults. Then, soon after that – the music returns. The freesong collection Reborn will be coming out for the holiday season, through Amazon music. Listen to a sample of freesong, below.



The Silent Hum

10 Feb

What a Small Bird am I


How Anger Boils

1 Feb

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The Funding of REBORN

15 Dec


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I am in the midst of a project very important to my life and work. The recording of Reborn is three months into its 1 year gestation, and it needs your help. Quoting from the update linked here:

As a difficult year comes to an end, we have some hope and magic returning to all of us, even as the world continues to be a scary place. We had snow here last weekend, the most beautiful snow, lie gently on the trees and ground of The Meadow. Even though I’ve been ill with bronchitis, the work and plans for Reborn have continued. The work will have to shift to the night time for the next few weeks, done in secret places as if readying Christmas gifts. Some of the work will be Christmas gifts, bedecked with images like the one included here.  

I need your help more than ever. The debt is steadily increasing, at a time when uncovered medical expenses also have to be paid. I realized I had no choice but to sign up for the most expensive supplemental Medicare insurance, to make sure emergency room visits would be covered (always a concern with my health problems at this time). Half of my very limited  monthly income has disappeared back into Medicare expense. This is why it is crucial for me to return to my work, in the best way possible. Medical help is clearing up some of the problems that curtailed my ability to get work done, including the physical ability to sing well, and the mental ability to focus and work for more extended periods of time. Subscribing to the Adobe Creative Cloud, which is another monthly cost, is helping me get around my inability to consistently play instruments. I may no longer be able to perform with them, but I can record segments and layer them together with the Audition program to create an astonishing range of instrumental music made up of bright, brief bursts of control over hands that never stop shaking anymore. The essential tremor that has always affected my ability to play, no longer stops me.

But the cost limits everything I do. I must find a way to survive on very little money, and complete the recording and video projects, within nine more months. That is, for what I’m doing, a very short period of time.

So please – if you want to give a gift that can spread from one place far and wide this holiday season, consider this. I want to give back to you something as wonderful as you give to me. And I want us all to share it with our loved ones, friends, and strangers, everywhere. Thank you.

Please visit my Indiegogo fundraiser page for more information.

For Your Holiday Shopping!

27 Nov


Here’s where you can find special gifts of sights and memories, beauty and inspiration, this holiday season, all made with Creativity and Sensitivity!

 The Thorn Tree Christmas is a tale based on a true story from my life, about a Christmas so terrible, my father said we wouldn’t have one… but I disagreed! See beautiful images of a Georgia mountain Christmas while you read our story…

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BEING Home is part memoir, part created dream – about how I learned to create dreams, and found that the dreams would affect my reality. I’ve been a dreamworker for many decades, and am as comfortable in dreamery as in reality. This is the first book I wrote about making dreams come true. A how-to workbook is in the works…

draft_lens7286952_1254273630synaesthesia_sq Psychic Sensibility is a book originally created for the fans of Paranormal State and Psychic Kids, when I was the moderator for Chip Coffey’s bulletin board. There were so many questions being answered with information that was wrong, or remedies that wouldn’t work. I knew this because I am a sensitive – a psychic medium who has never been interested in doing readings or appearances, but in researching what actually works, in psychic energy and communication. I realized that everyone uses the sixth sense: it’s the way we perceive what is happening in our minds, our thoughts, our dreams, our cognitive perceptions. It’s just that, sometimes, conscious information comes from places outside our own minds, and we should know how to recognize and perceive it. Energy carries information – we know that by physics. What do we know psychically? How can we understand it? This book can help.

img_5223 In The Bleak Midwinter tells of the joys of the holiday season to be found ever if, like me, you or someone you know suffers from holiday depression. I decided a long time ago not to expect the most magical times and things to arrive on the holiday or by any schedule at all: I wait for the gifts of the season to come when I feel them. This lovely photographic diary shows how I make the holidays special even in the bleakest times.


In Wintermas the season of Winter itself takes center stage. It’s a photojournal that can be enjoyed no matter what holiday – or no holiday – you celebrate!



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However you celebrate the holidays. whatever gifts you give or receive, have a marvelous time!

Singer, Reborn

19 Nov

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My voice has come back, full strength. It’s been years. To celebrate its rebirth, I am recording new tracks and creating videos of my photography. music, and poems. But I need help to do it! Please visit this page to find out how to help the music be reborn: The Singer Returns